StephanielovesHenry

This is our love story..... there is nothing simple or easy about the way that we met or how we keep our love in tact... But we know its right... so many times in life we look for what we want... sometimes... its about what God wants... This story is about our amazing journey to love and be loved! Many tears, many laughs, flutters of the heart, headaches, sleepless and lonely nights! We love each other and have gone great distances and lengths to be together! We never give up!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Henry and I took of two weeks of work and I flew from Salt Lake to Chicago where I missed my plane because they were having traffice issues, I then flew to Germany and then to Egypt and then to Uganda.... It was an amazing time, just before I left, Henry asked me to marry him at a resort we had visited the week before, I was beautiful with flowers and and lots of green surrounded by water... he is very very sweet and made it soo special. I love him so very much, I cried all day the day I was leaving for the airport, Henry made a video of us on my phone talking about my stay there and our time together and tenderly kissed me and held me as I sobbed. I miss him every day..... I love him very much and cant wiat for him to come here!

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I carry your heart with me

I carry your heart with me...I carry it in my heart.... I am never with out it, anywhere you go my dear, and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling I fear no fate for you are my fate, I want no world for beautiful you are my world and its you weather a moon has always ment and whatever a sun will always sing is you, here is the deepest sevret no body knows, here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide.. and this is the wonder thats keeping the stars apart. I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart! " E.E. Cummings

Henry's Letter

Dear Mom and Dad, how are you doing? My name is Henry Mwesigwa, lds, a returned missionary, a journalist by professional and from Uganda. I may be 1000s of miles away across the oceans and tropical jungles of Africa but please kindly accept the fact that every word on this piece of paper comes with sincerity and honesty from the bottom of my heart to you all. You may be knowing a little or nothing about me at all but true love and an answer to a honest and sincere long awaited prayer of a simple soul like myself has made it possible for me to cross boundaries across the oceans and reach your home with due respect where I have found some one special in my life that I dearly love so much, she has stolen my heart away and in return she has completely trusted her heart with me no matter the distance between us-this person am talking about is so special that my heart skips every time I think of her, she has become part of my life, she has a special place in my heart and have such great adoring respect for her. I feel so much blessed, privileged and honored to be in love with her and to have her in my life. She is an amazing person whom we have shared much and related so well in almost every aspect of life we have shared so far, thinking of her makes me the happiest person living on the earth-for this very reason I have a strong desire of sharing the rest of my life and all eternity with her so she can be the mother to my future children. She may have gone through a lot of difficulties in the past, endured many heart breaking pains and regrets but together we have come to realize and understand the fact that many times experiences like these in life happens for a reason, for our own learning-making life more meaning as we live and try to fulfill our potential in the great plan of our Father in Heaven. The person am talking about is so special more than the times I can repeat myself, I don’t have words enough to really describe my feelings how I feel but allow me with such great respect in meekness to say that this special person is your beautiful daughter Stephanie Though we haven’t known each other for so long, the time we have had is enough but even true love knows no time, no boundary, colour, culture or race-am completely in love with Stephanie and it feels like we have known each other for ever. For long I have dreamt and prayed for this moment to come into my life when I can meet a girl of my dream, many have come and gone but never have i ever found any one who compares to Stephanie-she is very special person and I have felt her spirit since the time we have known each other-I have every reason to say she some one of my dream. My patriarchal blessing says much about the special woman I would marry after my mission, I have waited for a long time with a lot of patience, promised my Heavenly Father that I would live faithfully and worthy of that special person until she came into my life at the right from any corner of planet earth and now I know my prayers have been answered without any shadow of doubt. I can’t deny any more what I know to be true, I love Stephanie with all my heart, I may not have a lot because I really don’t but all that I have at heart belongs to her and always will-I will work so hard to take care of her and make her the happiest person in my life because she is mine. Hope you will honestly and kindly accept the sincere feelings of my heart towards your daughter to allow me into your family as your son in-law as I kindly ask for your full blessing to let me take your daughter to be my wife so we can live our dreams, have a family, enjoy the full blessings from our Heavenly Father and live happily for all time and eternity. This is my humble request to you mom and dad, if I have said anything offensive to you please forgive me. Wishing you all well and hoping to hear from you soon. Yours sincerely, Henry Mwesigwa

"I will make you brooches and toys for your delight, of bird-song at morning and star-shine at night. I will make a palace fit for you and me, Of green days in forests and blue days at sea. I will make my kitchen, and you shall keep your room, Where white flows the river and bright blows the broom, and you shall wash your linen and keep your body white in rainfall at morning and dewfall at night. And this shall be for music when no one else is near, the fine song for singing, the rare song to hear! That only I rememver, that only you admire, of the broad that stretches and the roadside fire." Robert Louis Stevenson

Stephanie's Letter

Mom and Dad, After receiving Henry's letter to you I was inspired to write this letter! After my divorce, I was willing to find anyone who wanted me, anyone who would pay me attention or show me that I was worth having around. This has caused me a lot of pain and trouble. Since the time of my divorce, I have made a lot of mistakes. I met my Henry on LDS link up. Janice told me about it and encouraged me for many months to get on there. However, I was skeptical because of my past. I didnt know I really wanted to go this route again. I was right in a lot of aspects; I met a lot of men who asked me about my rear end, my breasts, my bra size, if I was into hook ups, one nighter’s and just how willing I was to go as far as they wanted etc.. But one of my very first messages came from My Handsome Henry. There are two things I have never wanted in a man. First, a man from another country. Second, one in the military; not because I don’t think they could take care of me but because I know that relationship would come with great difficulty and a lot of sacrifice. When Henry started talking to me; With all honesty, I was like NO WAY! I will shrug him off just like I will do with any and all the international people who contact me. In my first few emails with him, I gave him little detail about myself but he kept coming back, so I tried to scare him with the fact that at this time in my life I as unworthy to give him what he so much desired from a woman and that I was unworthy and a giant mess. He kept coming back and talking to me about prayer and temple blessings and strength, etc. Things that blew my mind because I had other prospects at the time. None of them LDS and only the ones who like to keep getting me into more trouble. I kept Henry at a bit of a distance, thinking he will give up or realize there is someone better for him. Henry has constantly encouraged me to pray and to follow my Heavenly father and to get my life in order. I was intrigued by Henry because in all of our conversations never once did we talk about my bra size or anything else that he would physically benefit from. This kept me talking to him. I started to fall for Henry a little, but kept it still at a distance because of Him being in Africa. When I was getting ready to go with Ama to SLC, I told Henry that I was going and he asked me to do him a favor. I agreed. Henry asked me if I would be near the temple and I told him that I hoped so, but wasn’t sure. He said if you go by the temple, please look at angle Moroni, make a wish, keep it in your heart until you return home and then kneel down on your knees and say a prayer about my wish. We didn’t make it to the temple in SLC but when I returned home that night, tired and exhausted, I went up to the Logan temple to do what I told Henry I would. When he asked me, I thought there was a time when I was able to hold my head up, I paid my tithing, attended the temple, went to church every Sunday and did the things that I could be proud of and I had asked for the little things in my life that I felt I never received an answer for, so I felt that surely God would not listen to me now. I parked the truck sideways in the parking lot and cried for probably the first 20 min I was there because I felt that asking him for anything would be something unwanted because of my recent actions, but I promised Henry I would do it because I would never want to hurt Henry. I simply asked God to help me to not hurt him and to help guide me with getting my life in order. I was crying, so I closed my eyes to blink and when I opened them I received my answer. On the side of the temple I saw a projection of an image; it was Henry and myself holding hands dressed in white. I blinked again rapidly as though I had just made it up, but realized that I had never allowed myself to imagine marriage with Henry or after everything else that they would ever let me back into a temple. I could not have made it up. But I, myself, for many minutes hesitated to believe. Then I realized that I had, for myself, for the first time received an awnser to my prayer. Do you remember the time when we went camping and our Truck was dead in the mountains, and I was just a little girl, and I said, "Dad, lets say a prayer."? I don’t remember how, but I remember that we found relief from that prayer and all was well. I had forgotten about that until this moment, but somewhere along the line, a disconnect happened between how I felt about prayer then and how I have felt about it since and then how I feel about it now. I realized that not believing what I saw was Satan trying to persuade me as he has for so long; that I am unworthy to receive an awnser to my prayers. I know with all of my heart that it was real and what I saw. I didn’t ask God to give me an awnser about marriage so this was quite unexpected. I went home and went to bed and got online with Henry at about 3 in the am. I told him about my awnser and we knew from that time on what we needed to do, but my Heavenly father knew that I would need a lot of validation and confirmation of what had happened and continued to give it to me. I woke up to a text at about 6 am from (my trouble maker) saying, "Hey, it's been a long time, etc." I know that this text was an direct attempt from Satan to throw me off my path because I missed him and he knew it would be hard for me to not awnser him. I didn’t answer him and I went back to bed. I woke up from a nightmare that I had about my trouble maker; again further confirmation to me that I was headed in the right direction with Henry. I dreamt that I went back to my trouble maker and everything blew up in a huge drama filled problem that caused me a lot of pain, not only me but everyone. In three different ways Heavenly father has given me answers to my prayers and because he knows me so well has confirmed the feelings that I felt at the temple. After that I knew that there was no turning back as I, just like Joseph Smith, could not deny what I have seen. I don’t know how this will all come about. I am scared and uneducated in how this process works, but I know that with your support, It will be a lot easier because I received an awnser to my prayers. I know what I will end up doing no matter what happens tonight. I can't deny his awnser I received. I have continued to fall in love with Henry. He is in everything I do, everything I think, and feel and dream. I love him and I know that he will make me happy and he will be the leaning post I have always needed. I deserve to have a strong husband and father for my children. I know that I will finally have that in Henry. I won't have to be the strong person all the time in my marriage, the one always trying to tug the other in the right direction because Henry has been on the right path for a very long time and has only helped to build my testimony and made me yearn to be a better person. The person you love should always do that for you; should build you up instead of tear you down. I know that this will be very hard to accept, but I hope that you are ready to do this with me because I don’t want to do it without you! I love you and I want for you to be proud of me again. I know that Henry is for me and this is right, which is why I am bringing this to you because it means that much to me and because I know it to be right. I told Henry that the last time I left my family, just states away, it almost killed me and I told him I could never move out of the country and he has agreed to live here, to quit his really good job and give up his home and family to come here because he says he can be happy anywhere as long as its with me. This man has started repairing the damage to my heart left by both of the men that I have given it to, and finally I feel that it's beating at the right beat and that I can breath again. I can truly say that Henry has breathed life back into me. I will continue to pray and ask for guidance. I love you and ask you to support my decision. I knew when I married before that it wasn’t right, which is why I didn’t ask your opinion, but this time it is easy because I know with all the surety what I am supposed to do. I was talking to Mom before things took a serious turn with Henry. I told her I would die alone and an old maid with no children. She said, "Stephanie, do you forget what it says in your patriarchal blessing?". She reminded me how it told me that I would be a mother, that I would create a home in which my children would want to return home to often. I cried because I still didn’t believe her because I felt I would never be worthy to receive those blessings and that it would be my punishment for screwing everything up so badly. But know I believe that maybe because of all the good things I have done, God was saving my babies for the man who really deserved them, and deserved me, and who I deserved! I have such respect for him, something I never had in my last marriage. I look up to him and hang on his every word. I feel that I will have the spirit in my home this time around and that it will be taken seriously. Something I feel terrible that Brody was cheated out of. This time will be different. I already feel a huge difference in my countenance with him and I know that my life will be wonderful with him. Henry is my apple at the top of the tree. I am on my way up to claim him as my own.